HOW IT ALL STARTED FOR ME (cont)

Due to hearing such stories while growing up, dreams did not usually bother me, other than their apparent and understandable short term effects.  Yes, I would wake crying or shaking from a dream, and remember it all day long, but did not think it unusual or out of the ordinary to dream such dreams.  I accepted it as quite normal.  It was not until later in life that I realized everyone did not have the same dreams or possess such abilities as I.  That is when I became more cautious with whom I shared my stories, and understandably so.

As a child, I always "felt" someone around me...and remember talking and playing with that unseen person or persons.  I didn't think of it as strange or weird, but perfectly acceptable, assuming everyone else knew and felt the same as I did.  My "imagination" grew, according to some older and more "educated" individuals.   I would play with the "persons" watching me, talk to them, and quite often found myself actually "showing off" for them, always aware of their prescence.  Not once did I realize that noone else could see or feel the same things as I.

As I got older, the more "as one" we became, the "spirits" and I.  Eventually, I came to know the persons only in my mind, as a detached part of myself.  I never "heard" voices, or actually "felt" anything, yet there was always that "awareness", someone watching over me.   It was as if they spoke to me in instant knowledge.  No words or conscious thought.  If I had a question, it was instantly answered.  I soon found the same to be true in my dreams.  When I dream, there is ALWAYS a presence with me, just behind my right shoulder.  It is a kind, loving, and knowledgeable prescence.  I only have to ponder for a moment, and it seems my answer is instantly delivered.  My dreams are always explained to me while they are happening, by that very presence.

Not always do I remember the meaning which was explained to me during the dream, but I always remember knowing that it had been explained, and I understood it completely while still in the dreamstate.  Perhaps the underlying meaning or explanation of the dream is not for my conscious thoughts, but for the deeper spiritual consciousness within me to know and understand.